glue goo

to bind a thing to a thing is a thing I cannot do
I'm surrounded by things that exist because smaller things stick together to form them
and if there's one thing I can't do it's stick things to things to make things that are stronger for their stuck-together-ness
I feel insane and bad at sticking things together and even worse at using nouns
I'm so bad at attaching things in either a sticky or a less sticky way that I actually don't understand what things are, because they are either the composite of things that have been attached or they are the components of things that either later are or even potentially could be stuck together and therefore are inherently mysterious and out of my reach.

I'm sorry, they're just out of my reach.

I know that in addition to the things that stick there are also the things that do the sticking, which semantically seems like a subtle difference to me right now but probably mainly because I'm having difficulty attaching thoughts to other thoughts which is usually easier for me than attaching objects to objects precisely because that process does not involve the things that do the sticking, which are sometimes dangerous gooey things and sometimes awful metal things with a lot of unmentionable potentials that cause me to shudder and keep me from advancing in this particular area of sticking things together which is actually sort of important in my life because it involves both producing things and understanding things, which is sort of a quality-of-life issue, if you ask me.

But I just can't do it. At least, I can't do it well. But I'm going to try, I guess.