finding my way into myself- or at least to other things through meditation

i sit down

sit bones feeling the floor

ok, know breath.

k, now breathe

ow- this hurts, why do i do this?

ow this hurts. k know breath. feeling breath coming in-lungs fulling, hmm more to the right than left.

images of sex

ow this hurts.

i see all the little creatures pounding and piercing my tissue.

breath? emails, phone calls, images of sex... ok ok- these are thoughts.

this hurts.

images of sex- again?

it's been more than twenty minutes- my alarm must be broken.

dont check your phone- dont check your phone- dont check your phone.

ok, only 5 more minutes.

now, breathe,

now breathe

images of.....oh god

where am i anyway?