Half of Two

i sat alone
in front of the computer
what time is it i asked
6:32 PM
said the computer
i don't want to change anymore
i said
i want to evolve
i want to grow
so many times in the past i've said i want to move on from what i'm doing
i want to change what i'm doing because i feel so unproductive
but i don't want to change
i like me
but i want to take what i'm doing further
i just need to take a deep breath
dive in
let the water envelop me
and then let it spit me out
give me air
freedom
and then take me in again
the water is my comfort

6:33 PM