POEM A DAY 2011
7 poems/7 days starting 7/7/2011
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
c'est moi
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Sitting the Quiet
where the city of masses
becomes empty
I sigh
lean back
stretch arms above my head
tuck my head into the bend of my knees.
These are diamond moments
unforgettable in their rarity
few and far between
glorious in the moment they arrive
and say goodbye.
The city of crowd control
grows quiet
and it feels like home.
Monday, January 2, 2012
Tell Me The Story
in its black and white glory.
Tell me of that first date
in the sprinking rain
ratty shirts and work clothes.
That was a day
But now it is gone.
Tell me the moment of pause
of how we teased
and I pressed my head to your heart.
Tell me of the moment I grabbed your hand
and we walked off together
into today.
Wednesday, October 12, 2011
lost at the station,
green at the elbows and the knees,
absent direction,
absent expectation,
gentle and willing as you please.
The canopy above your bed: once
I came with your permission here, though
without the wherewithal to've said how broad
the gap between premonition and fear.
Your better judgment, your
your reservations.
The reasons you put me on the shelf;
I have no use for
your recriminations.
I can recriminate myself.
Please, look my way again before we're old.
Make me the beneficiary of your doubt.
Monday, August 8, 2011
well, he says
there is a magnet
i say, if a cave doesn't provide.
i read all of them
when i woke up
i spent some time
and i saw more
i remembered i had to make them,
i had to make some time;
and so accordingly, i went out.
For Lu
Saturday, August 6, 2011
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Thursday, July 28, 2011
summer camp
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Slip
Sunday, July 24, 2011
Body Poem
the saline hum of crushed cabbage at my fingertips
amplifies each heartbeat
each contour of broken skin
each shallow breach of integrity,
and stop me if you've heard this one before, but
the lunged arc of my spine invokes
shrunken lungs and wax-dipped capillaries,
a ventral etiology of concern
Thursday, July 21, 2011
finding my way into myself- or at least to other things through meditation
All out of town
The dog bless a bowl a day
and a shell curled, pink.
Bring me my mine, he'll say,
Belong to me like a belt.
At night he will remind you
what was clotted in kindergarten
and nobly hung in the bathroom.
Comfortably sing to him the following:
I had some dreams,
they were clouds in my coffin.
We will be back to back. Til then,
de goob as golb. Uh, no.
Be here. Be here for us. Til then,
be here for us. Bye bye.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
the point is
Insiieae
to hear where the emphasis lies
Nick joked that you don't stop/
at the end of a line
but I don't get it. You don't? Who don't?
I imagine I start reading sitting down
and the words catapult me to my feet/ propel me off the couch
but would I stop to pace in front of the audience, or would I run to the boat house and steal out onto the still water?
"If I only had a month with you."
As if time could chip away to reveal a statue
Could you tell me I didn't simply throw these words onto a clothes rack/
and hope?
Loon
He wades through black silk.
Red-eye detective.
Family man.
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Missing
with every inch of skin
all three layers.
when I think about the paths taken
words said
I wish I could edit out, be clear about my missing.
I carry it with me, an accessory in my life
until the missing changes
and I change with it.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
headshot
green as a wheat-grass shot (kapow) but instead on my wall
like guts. green as shockingly as red.
the green is as shocking as red gets.
the frog within a dangered state,
palpating like a live heart would on my wall instead.
if the house had a heart inside its own chambers,
oh boy if these walls could feel.
magic is ambient, p.s.
i’d like to be a frog upon THAT wall,
someone must have said.
three words shifting us
down these city blocks
I see faces everywhere.
Holding soccer balls
dancing and practicing moves
Running with wind in their faces.
Strollers, heels, towels from the pools.
Each face with a story
a place here
a life with its meaning.
We forget these faces
as the blur into a mash of rainbows of colors
images that are all around us.
Each one the same
just another.
This face
and that one
with their stories
heartbeats
and voices
are there.
If we walks down these blocks
and look.
These days
new lebanon someday
yr purple lips
yr purple heart
yr bare feet rubbing each other on the couch opposite me
like we just got home from the opera and you had to escape from yr shirt
and those so and so's
yr toe nail fallen off two years in a row
yr purple purple heart
oh, and of course, your delicate, balding head
soggy little moment
on another note, i hate you.
she said
muffled
by the choke of
the feathers
growing out of her neck and
sticking,
embarrassingly,
into her liver slick mouth-
as she curses our name
repeatedly.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Bread
And I wonder, what am I missing?
Not B12, surely, I've been tested
Nr Arendt/Heidegger correspondences, no,
but I'll hang my posters
and hem the drapes
restock on emulsifiers
re-engage my rear breaks
And? Well?
Days arranged in a strained trikonasana,
Lungs that vacillate, not respirate.
The cat has turned her focus to the bread,
gnawed plastic, pointed ears, errant dough.
How Best Despoilt
burring the room like static would,
screwing the simple surfaces.
Roommates my loves: with athletic sock
make pale your shins,
and gallantly toast bread,
tucking unwhitened eggwhite under,
there are infinite points between one point and another,
and they bite.
i am really not alone
?
from jersey city and i get excited
but tonight, only hours after posting a plea for company,
to not have this house, empty and big, in the dark to myself for the weeks following,
promising home-cooking and the swing set,
i've never heard from so many lovers, old and new and (bashful, teasing)
potential, promising, and
all at once, remembering past years of the empty house
remembering my room in all stages of me, and long before the marmalade walls, remembering my bed with its crisp white sheets, stretched across the mattress like our
arched backs, the curl of our toes, waking with kisses and cups of tea
am tempted by all of it, a little for each of them, a little more of that peach of a girl,
a little more for hoping you'll see my words too, out there, and will say a bit of something
will give me a sip of your cigarette for old times, will come take your clothes off slowly
and get into bed the way you do always, as if you are diving into the ocean
there is the other hand, that dreamcastle boy driving me to shakepoint, to wrapping me all up,
to making me pinky swear to him and then deserting
to not ever reaching for me first, and damn, doesn't a girl just sometimes
want to be sure of something
resumAY partAY
Miss Grass
crossing the street, zig zag, squinting into the tinted windows to see if you could
watch me
.
you took your break (starbucks!)
sat outside, shady stoop.
after your bike accident you had band aids all over your legs.
I sat with you, touching your bruises to see how badly they all hurt.
it's a good thing to know; how badly one can bruise.
the catch
yeah but i can't
hi
hi
so what do you think
what do i think
yeah what do you think
well
yeah
it doesn't make sense
no
no
no
because you love her but you don't tell her
how come
that's for you to say
for me to say but i can't tell her that
why not
it brings the situation to reality and i can't handle reality
you do it all the time
i put on life is much harder than i am letting it be
you will feel better if you just open up
maybe but i haven't done it yet and this would be big
big
yeah the grandest greatest moment of my life and i want to know it will work
well it won't work if you don't let it work
who's to say
she is and so are you but most of all her
just do it
ok
yeah
yeah
maybe you won't
i will
but you've said yes before
maybe
i'm scared.
And thus ends this week's broadcast
so i will ask you
i will become so similar to you and touch you
calling people being outgoing drinking and being outgoing drinking and calling people
that was a wound
that was an hour
that was several minutes
that was my mother
sit on the blanket i can bring you eggs
whatever feels good SLEEPING BEAUTY
you like drinking with my mother
he is crying
and
he is crying
and
he is crying
there are three men
they are all crying
we do not have to cry
your friends might say hi when you will be alone so be ready i might say hi too ok
lets start crying i talked to you a little with some words not all of the words but yeah we talked with most words then
! tell me you love me cut off your tongue cut off you legs cut off your hands
tell me you love me put your tongue on put your legs on put your hands on tell me you love me
this friend is here that friend is there i have other friends there and also behind you above you she is my friend too
OK its a LONG TIME put on my hair put on my eyes put on my lips ok i love you
put these on! i love you no joke i asked all the cops and they all liked the story so much that they bought you this place that nun loves you seriously she asked me for a lot of things but i couldnt tell her because i forgot so thats why im asking you outside of it its this and its fun
It's irresponsible, I thought. How do I know which is which? Although it was true there was something those kids were unaware of, it was rude to say. We were all getting ruined, shiny-skinned.
Themes that seemed like sidetracks were actually central; embarrassment, childhood, failure, woozy-when-looking-in-the-mirror.
A shake across, I was never introduced properly, collecting medium-old objects and now stopped wondering, sometimes at least. Wear an apron, it looks constructed, if I weren't so, cramming over a stretch of grass. I couldn't tell them how excited I was in case they weren't excited too, but they were.
Those shoes
A Symbol, You Pull It Off Well
These days
I think about you a lot
About writing you a letter—
(it would say: every day, I cut up half an avocado and put it in my salad for lunch.
i remember how you used to eat avocados, with a spoon,
scooping barbeque sauce from the pitted center)
Sewing hair on hair, you made a long braided lock,
detachable and impermanent,
(you wore a different hair style each week)
like the studs you stabbed into black denim,
one by one, while I talked to a long lost friend
and collected dog hair off my own skin tight jeans.
Now your arm is dyed
In twisted shades of dark ink
And it’s hard to see that first black/green star.
Time has passed. I like to imagine you in old age--
Wrinkly skin, misshapen tattoos,
An inspiring lack of regret,
Doing whoknowswhat.
But I’ve never known how you thought of me,
Or how you might think of me now.
Solicit
solicit each other
while ignoring.
Some ask for food
money on trains
Beg us to listen to their stories
make them visible for a moment.
Others solicit for a cause
reaching their hands out to touch
another in the crash of bodies.
The ask, simple as 'do you have a moment'
is heard in drips along the streets
and left for forgotten.
The crisis, the cause, the issue
to be defended
if only one would stop
sign the paper
listen to the worry
or the needs for that person
to speak to other people
to get paid that day.
The Vine aches down towards the sea
and life does nothing
and we know we have not fooled
it
I've now given her a book in black carpet binding. Not... carpet.
But, we lost the cover.
The cat walks across the sink,
and we're the only things in the room that
`0`0`0`0`0 ugh i'm gonna barf in my body 2 `0`0`0`0`0`
climbed atop the platform
for discovery
we have seen our cat eat: tuna, placenta, a mouse
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
searching for poetry?
a Quotation
- If with the literate I am
- Impelled to try an epigram,
- I never seek to take the credit;
- We all assume that Oscar said it.
I'm Not a Librarian, But I Wrote This at Work
I.) Librarians burst into song
every day
desperation and cosmic peace come together as
self-assurance via self-awareness of a joke of who you are;
last night I slept on the floor for no reason.
And today everyone is singing all the hits.
I woke up at 6:30 am hallucinating Alexandra
Alexandra you were so happy I was up so early!
I felt I’d failed you when I awoke again at 9:30, on the floor
bathed in light.
II.) Madeleine met her husband at a conference;
You can’t even say “conference” around her; she blushes!
When librarians go to conferences they doubt they’ll find love but
Librarians can find love anywhere else just by saying they’re librarians
Anyone can find love that way, it’s ok, you have permission -
not from me, but you have it.
III.) I feel close to my mother lately.
She can pee in front of everyone.
It seems normal to her but terrifies me
knowing how she used to live, who and what she used to do;
like a librarian who goes on dates -
and
talks about them!!!
I worry that I, too, would bear a child
Who is so prim, who must be trained to accept nakedness
to unlearn her inborn manners
in order to be happy.